Story Of A Girl

Wow. I haven't updated this for a while, but I have a awesome excuse.

Well, I took your advice and I told Jelani that I liked him.

Guess what? He's mad at me.

He's mad because I didn't tell him sooner and now he's going out with this girl he doesn't even like.

I told him I didn't want him to break up with Rosa just becaise I told him I like him and he said fine.

The next day when we went to school, nothing was really awkward like I expected it to be. A little quiet at some moments but nothing too big.

At lunch my friend Chris had a weird fettish with him and this coin. He would keep flipping it to answer everybody's questions.

So then he comes saying:

Chris: Alrigh, Sadie. Heads - you and Jelani belong together and are just too stupid to figure it out yourselves and will one day get married and have like 5 kids or tails - you don't. *Flips the coin and it lands on tails*
Me: Ha!
Chris: Wait, wait! I'm gonna try again! *Flips again and it still lands on tails* Dammit!
Me: I got a better idea. Why don't we flip for you and Carol. If it's heads - you guys have to kiss. Tails- then you don't.
Chris: Fine...

By the way, Carol is this girl that Chris is like crazy about but is just too stupid to admit it. Anyways, he flips it and it lands on heads. He spazzes out. Then, Jelani takes the coin and flips it and it still lands on heads. Chris and Carol are both blushing now and it was just so cute. Then everyone was like "Kiss! Kiss! Kiss!"

Then, to back fire at me, Carol says:

Carol: Why don't you kiss Jelani then, Sadie?
Me: Fine! I will! *I turn my head and kiss Jelani on the cheek* Your turn.
Chris: What kind of kiss is that?! You have to kiss him on the lips!
Me: *I hesistate for a moment and kiss him on the corner of his lips* There. Happy now?
Chris: ... Fine! *He kisses Carol on the corner of her lips*

That pretty much ended there. After that, the day continued normally until I got on aim. Jelani started talking to me saying that he wanted a real kiss, like full lip thing. I just loled at him and what not.

Today, once I got upstairs, Chris comes up to me telling me that Jelani broke up with Rosa. I was sooo upset. The one thing I told him not to do and he does it! Ugh. Boys are so stubborn. At second period I gave him a peice of my mind.

Jelani: Hey, strawberry.
Me: Don't talk to me.
Jelani: Why not?
Me: I told you not to break up with her.
Jelani: I'm sorry, but I couldn't fake it anymore.

The conversation ended there because I knew where it was headed if I kept talking about it. Again, the day went by normally until we headed to the chess club thingy. (Yes. Because of him, I go there now.) He started telling me that he had something planned out for me later tonight. I admit it. I was worried. I kept asking him what he was going to do, but he refused to tell me.

D:

Anyways, I got my but kicked in dominos. I think it was because of all my thinking. But anyways, we headed home and we were just talking and such. When he dropped me off at my house, I just expected him to give me a hug like he usually does, but today he leaned in a little differently. Then it hit me. He wanted to kiss me.

Jelani: I told you I wanted my kiss yesterday on aim.
Me: Oh! Yeah, sorry... *I lean in to give him a kiss on the cheek*
Jelani: No! Not on the cheek. *Begins to walk away*
Me: *I pull him back and I....

Yup. I kissed him today. It wasn't like a big deal kiss, it was just a small awkward tap. Then, I said bye and walked away.

I know for a fact that things are going to be awkward tomorrow.

I walked home alone today. I never walk home alone, so why today? Oh. I know why.

Because Jelani has better things to do.

I mean, usually righ after 8th period, he would pick me up and then we'll leave. Well, after 8th period today, he just gave me a hug and told me he would see me later.

Wtf?

I brushed it off. I was pretty much numb to my paranoia until I saw Rosa (Yeah. That's her name.) sitting on the staircase, waiting with a couple of her friends.

I'm not stupid. I know she was probably waiting for him. Again. I was numb, but I still wanted to kick her down the stairs.

:)

So, there I was. Walking home. Alone. So, I decided to something to keep myself from tearing. Yes, I felt that depressed about it. But anyways, I started singing to myself.

Stupid idea.

The only song that came to my head at the moment was Boats and Birds by Gregory and the Hawk.

A.K.A. a really depressing song.

:/

I just felt like tearing even more.

My little sisters came home shortly after I arrived and I had just remembered that my mom told me to take my youngest sister, Jessie, to go do her hair. So, I did and tried to treat myself as well.

I feel all pretty now. :D

(Yes, but in the inside I feel like crap.)

Ugh. She didn't even say hi to him! What kind of girlfriend is that? I mean, we all hang out in lunch together, except for Rosa. She like sits on the whole other side of the lunch room. I didn't even notice that she had the same lunch period as us until recently. But yeah. She keeps passing by out lunch table, but nothing. She just gives him this look and continues walking.

She freaks me out!

>_<

But I guess her and her constant passing kept Jelani away from me. Usually at lunch, we sit together and play around and such, but today, he barely talked to me. The only thing he did do was scare me.

When I was sitting at the lunch table, he came up behind me and put his hands on my sides to scare me. As a reaction, I grabbed onto his hands to pull him off. But he didn't move his hands. He just left them in mine, tangling his fingers with mine. I wish I could have held on for longer, but he pulled away.

I think I'm just overreacting. Yeah? Please tell me I'm right. Please just tell me I'm freaking out.

I mean, just last week we were friends. Like brother - sister kind of thing. And now - BAM! I'm a clingy freak?

-_-;

Ugh. I have too many issues.

One of my close friends just confessed his love to me... again.

:/

& I think I like him, too.

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Usually something like this wouldn't bother me, but now I think about it, it's making me feel crummier by the second.

Well, you remember my friend, Jelani?

Well, yeah. He likes me. I know it. Everyone knows it. But the thing was is that I only saw him as a friend. Nothing more. But lately I've been having these feelings towards him but never told him because I didn't think he liked me anymore.

Today I found out that this girl asked him out. He told me he doesn't like her but... then why would he kiss her? Or he let her kiss him? Ugh. I know this shouldn't bother me, but it does. I tried not to show it and I hope he bought.

Someone who didn't buy it was my other friend Chris. Claiming that I'm jealous.

I'm not jealous.

He basically told me today that he prefered me over her, so what am I so worried about?

Oh, yeah.

Because I can't tell him I like him back!

Ugh.

Why must life be so hard for me? But it seems it's getting harder cause of this new girl. Why would I tell him I like him now? For him to leave her and she come after me? A dramaless life is something I need right now. I don't want to put myself into more problems.

I should just see how things turn out. I mean, if they end up together, there's not much I can do about it. I should have just took my chance while I had it. Lucky her. I'm sure he would be happy with her.

I'm not jealous. I swear, I'm not jealous.

I'm envious.

Hm. I guess I'll start out by giving you an update on my leg.

The doctors said it could be two things. A swollen gland or a hernia. Did I spell that right? Well, yeah. You get my point. If it's a swollen gland, it will go down by itself. If it's a hernia, I would need surgery.

Great.

Now onto my day.

My woke up with my leg still sore, so I was pretty slow in walking down the hallways. I kind of pissed my friends off, but they love me so much that they actually waited. :D

But yeah. My global teacher, Mr. Kendrick, wasn't here. Yay. After that I went up the chemistry where my friend Amanda and I talked about scary movie and pets.

(She thinks she's bad luck because most of her pets died. :/)

After chemistry came living enviorment, which nothing happened, followed by modern literture. We had another sub in that class, but not much work, so I finished quickly. Will never does his work, so he automatically turned around in his seat to bug me. We just began talking about random things. Such as his girlfriend breaking up with him, him painting his nails and my option of him turning gay.

He would make a good gay guy.

He refused on coming out the closet as always and we both headed up to the lunch.

Hm. Nothing really happened in lunch that I know of. Pretty boring day. Everything pretty much flew by after that. The only real thing I was looking foreward to today was guitar lessons. And guess what?

It was cancelled. D:

I was pretty much devistated after I heard that. One of my guy friends, Jelani, invited me to go to chess club with him today. >_>

Yeah, I went. Even though I suck at chess!

There we met up with my other friends Sherman, Chris and Tayne. Everyone told me that Chris also sucked at chess so I went against him first. I admit, it was still hard for me, but then my conscience came in. Well... it was Tayne. He began telling me what to do, but atleast I won. :]

Then I was going against Tayne, himself, and there was pretty much no hope for me there. So, I ditched him during the game and joined Jelani and Sherman in dominos. A game I actually know how to play.

I kicked their butts.

Tayne overheard this and wanted to beat me, himself.

I kicked his butt, too.

That was pretty much the highlight of my day. :P

Ugh.

I'm just sitting around the house waiting for my mom to come back from work so she could take me to hospital about my leg. To help time go by fatser, I finished up New Moon. But I have to say I'm a little dissapointed. I mean, yeah, a lot of Jacob - ish stuff that I was hoping for, but about the whole Edward thing... Not a real challenge. I mean, they made the Volturi sound like some really scary dudes, but nothing happened. I mean, Aro is like some happy go lucky guy. (To me atleast.) I was expecting some sort of fight scene or something. The only really intense part was the part where Bella had to catch up to Edward before he walked into the sun. That's it. They don't even come across Victoria like I was hoping would happen.

It like this:
- Jasper almost kills Bella
- Edward leaves Bella
- Bella becomes a depressed little thing
- She tries to put herself in danger to hear his voice
- She leads Jacob on (Poor boy.)
- Finds out he's a werewolf
- Alice comes back thinking Bella committed suicide
- Edward thinks she did too and goes to Italy to die
- Alice and Bella go to Italy to stop him
- When Edward sees Bella, he thinks he's dead (I thought that part was actually cute for some reason)
- They get invited to have cakes and tea with Aro
- They leave right when a whole bunch of people get killed
- Go back to Forks
- Charlie is angry (Grr!)
- Bella makes the Cullens vote
- Edward gets angry (Another Grr!)
- Edward proposes to Bella? (Was he joking?)
- Jacob becomes a traitor (D:)
- Charlie is angry again (Rawr!)

Yeah. That's basically New Moon there. I liked Twilight better. It had more action and suspence and all that jazz.

*Huggles James plushie* :3

Ohmygeez .

I feel like a total and complete stalker now.

Well, as you all know, I like Twilight? I mean, seriously. Who doesn't? But I think I went to far. I edited the picture of Bella and Edward together and (thanks to photoshop) pasted my face onto her's. It came out really good and beleive able. Except for the part that I'm smiling a little too much. I would actually post it on here, but you guess might just think I'm a little too weird. :/

One of the reasons why we should pay attention to those kids that everyone else seems to ignore. They will one day be hot.

:]

I remember when my sisters and I used to watch Drake and Josh. We loved Josh... because he was funny. Basically, everyone was more for Drake. These days, I look way passed Drake and straight to Josh. I think he is sooo hot now. I never thought I would see the day.

But moving onto my day -

I attempted to curl my hair today... I know. Stupid idea, but listen to this. It didn't come out that bad. It came out pretty decent. The only thing that bothered me was that with it loose, I looked like some kind of lolita doll. I decided to clip is back and use the chopsticks (the ones that I found yesterday) and stuck them inside. Pretty simple but basically took me an hour or so.

Note to self: Don't try to curl hair again.

But curly hair wasn't my only issue today.

The upper part of my leg as been sore for like 2 to 3 days. I basically ignored it, thinking I just pulled a muscle or something, but the pain wouldn't go away. Last night when I was feeling at the sore spot, I felt like a bump or ball bulging out of my leg. To make sure that if it was normal or not, I felt on my other leg and the bump or anything. I told my mom about it, but she said it was going to be fine. I tried ignoring it again, but it got worse. I was out with my dad today. Sundays always belong to my dad. I told him about it and he offered to take me to the hospital. Thing is, I would feel much more comfortable if it was my mom taking me. I called my mom asking her if she could take me to the hospital when I came home tonight. She said yeah, that she would be home by the time I came back.

After dinner with Grandma, my dad drove me hime and guess what? No mom.

I grabbed my phone and began calling her, but she didn't answer. It was only her stupid answer machine. So, I decided to leave her a short little message about how I felt about this.

"Thanks for being here when I needed you."

That was basically all I needed to say. But I promise you once she comes home, I would have a lot more to say.

In the meantime, let me just finish New Moon to calm myself done and take my mind off the pain.

TTFN,

Sadie .

So, much for being in the play. All the spots for my Church's christmas play was taken up and I was stuck with the dance.

Me? Dancing? I don't think so.

I just hope I don't make a complete fool of myself.

-_-;

But you know what could be worse than having to dance infront of a dozen of people? Underwear shopping. Especially with an aunt that you barely know. I mean, shopping with my mom, I feel comfotable, but my aunt? Now, that's awkward. I just grabbed a box of random undies and kept walking.

(I don't even know of they fit me. =/)

On our way home we stopped at a Checkers. It was my first time at one and once I saw the size of those burgers, I wanted to puke.

Did you see how much meat was on that peice of bread? A whole cow I bet!

Note to self: Turn vegetarian.

I stuck with one of the kids meals and kept on moving.

When I came hom, mom was gone. Probably off at work or something. I don't even bother to question her anymore.

But guess what she left me! (Well, I found them... but they were on my desk!)

Chopsticks. You know, like the ones you stick in your hair? Yeah. They are sooo cute. I would show you a picture, but my camera hates me. (Hence why I have "camera" on my whishlist.)

I already tried so many hairstlyes with them and some came out pretty decent. I wanted to wear them tomorrow, but we are headed off to Church. Would it be appropiate to wear chopsticks to Church? I will debate with that tomorrow morning.

Right now, I'm basically kicking myself for missing the beginning of Seeker. I missed like the first 15 minutes and don't understand crap. Now I'll have to wait until next Saturday to see it again.

-_-;

I might as well just turn off the t.v. and get some reading down. I don't want Edward to die!

D:

Stupid Bella...

TTFN;

Sadie .