I walked home alone today. I never walk home alone, so why today? Oh. I know why.

Because Jelani has better things to do.

I mean, usually righ after 8th period, he would pick me up and then we'll leave. Well, after 8th period today, he just gave me a hug and told me he would see me later.

Wtf?

I brushed it off. I was pretty much numb to my paranoia until I saw Rosa (Yeah. That's her name.) sitting on the staircase, waiting with a couple of her friends.

I'm not stupid. I know she was probably waiting for him. Again. I was numb, but I still wanted to kick her down the stairs.

:)

So, there I was. Walking home. Alone. So, I decided to something to keep myself from tearing. Yes, I felt that depressed about it. But anyways, I started singing to myself.

Stupid idea.

The only song that came to my head at the moment was Boats and Birds by Gregory and the Hawk.

A.K.A. a really depressing song.

:/

I just felt like tearing even more.

My little sisters came home shortly after I arrived and I had just remembered that my mom told me to take my youngest sister, Jessie, to go do her hair. So, I did and tried to treat myself as well.

I feel all pretty now. :D

(Yes, but in the inside I feel like crap.)

Ugh. She didn't even say hi to him! What kind of girlfriend is that? I mean, we all hang out in lunch together, except for Rosa. She like sits on the whole other side of the lunch room. I didn't even notice that she had the same lunch period as us until recently. But yeah. She keeps passing by out lunch table, but nothing. She just gives him this look and continues walking.

She freaks me out!

>_<

But I guess her and her constant passing kept Jelani away from me. Usually at lunch, we sit together and play around and such, but today, he barely talked to me. The only thing he did do was scare me.

When I was sitting at the lunch table, he came up behind me and put his hands on my sides to scare me. As a reaction, I grabbed onto his hands to pull him off. But he didn't move his hands. He just left them in mine, tangling his fingers with mine. I wish I could have held on for longer, but he pulled away.

I think I'm just overreacting. Yeah? Please tell me I'm right. Please just tell me I'm freaking out.

I mean, just last week we were friends. Like brother - sister kind of thing. And now - BAM! I'm a clingy freak?

-_-;

Ugh. I have too many issues.