One of my close friends just confessed his love to me... again.

:/

& I think I like him, too.

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Usually something like this wouldn't bother me, but now I think about it, it's making me feel crummier by the second.

Well, you remember my friend, Jelani?

Well, yeah. He likes me. I know it. Everyone knows it. But the thing was is that I only saw him as a friend. Nothing more. But lately I've been having these feelings towards him but never told him because I didn't think he liked me anymore.

Today I found out that this girl asked him out. He told me he doesn't like her but... then why would he kiss her? Or he let her kiss him? Ugh. I know this shouldn't bother me, but it does. I tried not to show it and I hope he bought.

Someone who didn't buy it was my other friend Chris. Claiming that I'm jealous.

I'm not jealous.

He basically told me today that he prefered me over her, so what am I so worried about?

Oh, yeah.

Because I can't tell him I like him back!

Ugh.

Why must life be so hard for me? But it seems it's getting harder cause of this new girl. Why would I tell him I like him now? For him to leave her and she come after me? A dramaless life is something I need right now. I don't want to put myself into more problems.

I should just see how things turn out. I mean, if they end up together, there's not much I can do about it. I should have just took my chance while I had it. Lucky her. I'm sure he would be happy with her.

I'm not jealous. I swear, I'm not jealous.

I'm envious.